pix and flow

i survived the bug. absolutley the worst pain EVER. i now feel i have experienced childbirth. three times. in a single 11-hour flight.

just a quick note about pictures. i ended up with 775 of them. no idea how that happened! i must have been bored or something. needless to say, it's going to take a bit of time to get them organized.

in retrospect, i am still processing this trip. i didn't go with the intention of finding myself or doing any sort of soul-searching. i feel like i already knew myself pretty well stepping into the trip. however, spending three weeks alone does some funny things to a person...even me, the "loner." i think i experienced every emotion under the sun while i was over there. thoughts and memories bombarded me and i didn't have a distraction as an escape, so i kept getting pounded! i feel like i came back to the states raw, and a little euphoric. i do know myself a lot better now, amazingly, having my soul ripped open and bared to the world like it was. seriously, that's what it feels like. and these days, i feel so much more relaxed and yet confident! i speak louder, and with more conviction...i even make decisions more quickly. i have a much stronger sense of what it is i want! it's a nice change. the best part is, i feel so much more content with the mundane aspects of my life. i don't feel like i have to be doing something every second of the day, "moving forward" or "progressing." i've realized that sometimes just sitting around and enjoying the moment offers more progression for the soul than any action, and i need to savor, rather than fear, those moments. all that being said, i feel much more at ease with my life, exactly as it is. i have no burning desire to change it at this point in time, but rather wait for life to work its magic and see what manifests. it's exciting to think that way because truly, anything can happen. SO, i am just gonna take a seat and surrender to the flow...like i am still floating around in that warm, turquoise water. :)